I'M BACK! sorry guys, i've been on a really long hiatus =X yeah screw me T_T oh well, i'm gonna be honest...i've been busy with umm, maplestory. you guys must be thinking, "OH its that goddamned maplestory again. when will you stop playing it?! its total crap!" hey i say... maplestory isn't that bad...made many friends, had a crapload of fun! okay end of story! *zips mouth* i gotta get my act together and study real hard in school which is starting next tuesday.
apart from playing that game, i've been thinking a lot lately too. you guys know why i don't know any childhood games (except for scissors, paper, stone and five stones, thats too common) and songs and crap? i think i know why now. dear bloggie, i've not told this to anyone yet. i tried to forget my childhood and i pretty much kinda succeeded (actually i'm contradicting myself). when i was little, i was caned by my dad till my wounds were red and swollen. god knows why dad caned me. whenever i see that damned cane coming at me, i would get terrified and scream for my mom. mom couldn't stop my dad from caning me. i truly hated my dad in my childhood. damnit. being the eldest child in the family is shitty. my lil bro and sis didn't suffer the strokes of the cane at all. its so not fair! wtf. anyway, i didn't mix around in school too. i was anti-social. i didn't have any friends to talk to, to play with... up till now, i still don't have the slightest clue what was so wrong with me when i was little. i even refused to go to kindergarden (preschool) for the first year. i only started in the second year with a lot of struggle and force from my parents. if i didn't wanna do something, i would cry really loud till i didn't have to do it lol. what a stubborn ass i was (i still am =/). my mom was baffled with my behaviour (i bet my dad was too). this anti-social thingy stopped when i proceeded to secondary school. at first, i was so afraid of opening my frigging mouth to talk to anyone. gradually, i began to make friends. they were dumbfounded when i told them i don't know any childhood games. don't worry, i'm normal now although i'm still quiet. i can be really talkative if my friends are talking about a topic which i'm interested in. there's another incident that happened...i only know what it is when i was older. i can't say this here, its too hurting. i feel so much better letting all out. *heaves a sigh of relief*
sorry all, i have been such an ass. i apologize for being disinterested in whats going on around me. i love my friends to bits!
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